Trials

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, and ever-present help in trouble.

lately, i've been hit with all sorts of trails good and bad. it feel like its truly putting my ability to handle such acute situations to the test. at this point i would compare my reactions to an army man crawling under those treacherous ropes trying to get across to the other side. and of course along the way knees get torn up and mud gets splashed in your face.

the aching knees are like my strength to believe that i wont let myself down and I will keep going to finish with satisfaction. the mud is like road blocks that come along with the trials. as soon as i feel like something bad is coming to an end another problem has to arise.

right now, i'm being set to the ultimate test. i would tell you whats going on..but unfortunately i can't. this is day 4 of 365 and i'm already trying so hard to keep my chin up. this is probably the biggest obstacle i will have to go through but it could be worse. at this point its more of a disappointment that it got this far, and it could have been prevented. similar situations have arose in the past and i tried my best to make it clear that i would not tolerate such situations but the act of feeling fearless had taken over. from here on out i have to have hope and look for positivity rather than negativity. i know that this is something i can absolutely learn from.

if you have an imagination like myself you're probably thinking of something illogical and obscure. but it actually has nothing to do with me. just something that i'm somewhat apart of, but not exactly. perplexing but i'm just going to leave it to that.

during hardship i occasionally begin to lose faith and want to turn away. running from situations that i'm in fear of seems to always be an option for me. it's a inadequate option but a valid one in the state of fear. it's a new year, a new me. and for the first time i sought after another alternative. rather than running and allowing cynical thoughts to get the best of me i've allowed myself to endorse the issue and take it for what it is. regardless of the hardship this is all a challenge that i know i can accomplish. life didn't come with an instruction manual so making mistakes and feeling depleted will be around the corner but i know that good will come out of this. with faith and optimism i can do all things through Christ.

xoxo Dom