Amore

love; adoration, or a very strong liking.


the word love gets tossed around so often some people tend to forget the real meaning behind it it.

i remember when i was just fifteen years old when i told my first crush that i "loved" him. of course at the age of fifteen love can be defined as this puppy love you have when you first start "dating", or the butterflies they give you, or just simply an infatuation with someone. but this is all just a puzzle piece of love. 

now, that i'm older i came to discover how love really makes you feel and what it really means.

love with family: for the most part this is unfailing love. it's the affection you receive from birth. and it's the relationship and outpouring care that you receive from people that have been there since day one.

love with friends: i learned that the friends i love are the friends that i've built an amazing relationship with. it's the kind of love that you learn to trust and confide in. love with friends is probably a type of love that i struggle with the most. seemingly because this type of love has failed me. 

love with a significant other: this type of love is my favorite. growing with another person and having a connection that is far more than just friends is such a wonderful feeling. the adoration exchanged with one another is endless. this type of love evolves rather than already present. meaning, you have to work to make it work. having a companionship that is (sometimes, not always for some) unbelievably reliable makes life worth living.

i've grown to not drop the L bomb as often as i did before. my heart has been broken 2 or 3 times. those moment will never be forgotten but i'm thankful that i actually have forgotten what it feels like to be heartbroken. 

now that i've found someone so perfect for me i give a huge thanks to my past relationships. 

dating boys have lead me to find a real man. 

if i told you some of the guys i dated in high school and what they're doing now, you would probably laugh. i persecute myself from time to time because i wasted so much of my life with a silly boy that is now at a stop sign in his life. i only wish the best for him and continue life with a smile because i'm far more happy without them. 

if i could take some of my relationships back, i would. i am convicted of projecting the word love around like it's just a verb, or a noun. it only led me to a hard fall and a ghastly reaction to the phrase, "it's not going to work out." 

although, i'm so thankful for some of those guys who came into my life. 

because of them they perfected the kind of man i want to marry, and can't wait to marry. 

Dom