hypocrisy.

it's late, i'm tired and i'm ready to go to bed.
but going to bed with things on my mind prevents me from having a good nights rest.

first off i would like to say that this is my personal blog, where i share things about my life that are filtered, and sometimes not filtered. i do this for myself. i look back at trials that i've gone through, and i do this to release a lot on my mind. i don't necessarily share stories for everyone else but sometimes i do hope that i can help someone else through things that i face. honestly, i could care less if no one reads this. it's for myself and if you have problems with things i share, or if you think i'm saying something subliminally about you then come talk to me about it personally.

now that that's cleared over i am so irritated. one of many things. hypocrisy.
the correct definition is; a person who pretends to have virtues, morals, or religious believes that he or she does not actually posses.
i think that everyone suffers with this often because we get caught up with someone else's actions that we soon posses it but not even realize it until it's too late. i'm not going to lie and i'm guilty of this all the time. i'll tell my sisters they can't do something, but then do it myself. it doesn't ever make sense until i reevaluate what i've done and change it.

but what really grinds my gears is when someone sets themselves on a pedestal and points fingers at everyone else. then turns around, when they don't think anyone will find out and does it. that makes zero sense and it does become a problem when i'm not the only on who notices it.

God has seriously blessed me with good judgement. sometimes i slip, and let things fall through the cracks. but most of the time i have good judgement about the people in my life. it may take some time but i can differentiate true and fake.

there's a huge difference between having conflicts with someone and being mature and still treating them as a human being, but there's also a difference between having conflicts and acting like they're your good friend. why not just avoid the situation entirely and not make yourself look bad. i've learned this over time and at the end of the day i've felt better about myself. when i don't want to put my self in a situation where i know i'm going to be fake, i just avoid it altogether. sounds harsh, but it works for me.

there are reasons why God took certain people out of my life. and sometimes i question it, but little do i know his ultimate intentions. people come and go like money in my pocket but i wouldn't want it any other way. i've learned to deal with people with different types of personalities. i've learned to control my tongue, i've learned to stand up for myself, and most of all i've learned how to guard my heart.

i'm officially an adult and i am so content with my life. i can't express enough that my family, boyfriend, and 2 best friends are all i truly need.  why would i ever want people who constantly have something negative to say about me in my life at all? there is no reason. so i've moved forward and if you think it's still fun and games to do stupid stuff, and "gossip" go for it but count me out. the only person you're fooling is yourself.

xoxo,
Domonique